Sometimes it is impossible to put things into words, especially when it involves someone who was your all. You can mull over it for hours on end, for years to come, and know that you will never come to terms with it. You can ask God every day why and know that you will never know why. And you can ask how to move on, how to move forward, and feel as though you are tied down.
A week ago, I was asked in my interview at the Miss Rodeo America contest what my favorite part of being Miss Rodeo California was and the answer was too easy. I quickly replied, “It was the opportunity to meet some of the greatest legends in the rodeo industry, who share the same passion for the sport of rodeo as myself.” The judge asked a follow-up question, “Well, who exactly was the greatest person you met?” Again, the answer was too easy; I replied, “Ellen Kleinbeck, the Miss Rodeo California booking agent, is the most generous, caring person I have met, and she has touched the hearts of so many of us in one way or another.” The judge looked at me as though I had answered the question wrong, as if he was looking for something more profound. At that moment, I knew I could have told him about the time that I met 7-time World Champion Dan Mortensen at the Hall of Fame, who is known for his humility and modesty. I knew that I easily could have talked about the laughs I had on the plane sitting next to the well-known Bob Feist, who hosts the largest single-day team roping. And, of course I could have mentioned the strong-willed children I have spent time with during Western Wishes events and Challenged Children’s rodeos. But all of those answers would have paled in comparison to the impact that Ellen had on my life. The nine-minute personal interview was not enough time for me to justify my answer, as we all know that it would take hours to sum up Ellen’s impact.
I could not have asked for a better
friend. She was my best friend, my second mom, and the world to me. I will miss
her more than you will ever know. Rest in peace Ellen. We love you and miss
you.